>>22 I can say it now, if you let me: the way we try to get by can not be the way we can win, or to all be an apt God in our own wee way. Do you see it as I can see it? The way to win has to be a way up and in e.g. we bob in a sea of mud and got out of the way, but we did not dry our toe off on a far off bit of the map. Now we sit in her lap as if it's all to be had, as if to say "It is the way it is, is it not? Or is it?"